About Me
“The imprints we receive in the first years of our life shape us in profound ways that press far into adulthood. The accident of birth (the consequence of the place, family and genes into which one is born) is something we all bear.”
Growing up in the complications of an alcoholic household with generational trauma impacted my worldview, my relationships, and established a cascade of beliefs about my worthiness, and safety within the world and my own body. This set me up for a journey of undoing, revealing, and learning. A place many of us find ourselves in again and again and again. So my story is not unlike many stories.
“‘Out of the frying pan and into the fire.’ Life learnings often are gathered by moving deeply into the very things that challenge and hurt us. As Maya Angelo wrote: ‘Midwives and winding sheets know a birthing is hard and dying is mean and living’s a trial in between.’ Our trials move us toward the light.“
As many living things do, I wanted to have and to give safety, security, and love so I married, had children, rescued dogs, grew plants, and created my very own family. Life presented unknowns and learnings. My partner got cancer and died after a five-year battle, leaving me a single mom of two little kids. All I feared landed in my orbit- failure, insecurity, abandonment, loss. Pulling on the values I had been shown, I took a determined, strong, hardworking approach and white knuckled and single mommied on. Outside of my work in Early Childhood Education, I found true joy and connection in nature. I healed parts of myself through resourcing art, writing, nature, Flower Essences, Jungian Dream Analysis, Massage, Reflexology, Energy Medicine, and my community. I soldiered on to save the world and myself. I just kept focusing on what was going on outside of me. As the years passed, I was unaware that my cup was growing very dry and empty.
“We each are magnificent energy capable of harnessing creative potential. We are part of a cascade of thought, belief, and action. Our brilliant bodies are filled with highly intelligent cells, each with its own brain, wherein every thought creates a feeling which in turn shapes and drives our actions.”
After starting another family, I quickly fell into a long haul of complicated, misunderstood health conditions that caused a myriad of symptoms like anxiety, panic, endocrine disruption, autoimmune diseases, cancer, and viral long-haul syndrome. I pulled from all I knew to fix and heal myself but became more and more exhausted. I continued this path until FINALLY I heard an internal voice say, “FILL YOUR CUP, GIRL!!!”; “How?”, “By finding and releasing the old beliefs that no longer serve you.” Huh?! Slowly, I began to see the larger story of how all that I had done and become was woven together into now. Prioritizing, I slowly filled my cup and became freer.
“Poet Rumi said, “The road is not the road, the road is how you walk it’. The path through the dark cave of our shadows, to find wholeness. goodness, emotional freedom, and balance is as unique as the teeth in your mouth, your footsteps, the blueprint of you. It is not about how you get there, how long it takes, or what it looks like, it’s just about doing the work.”
We all have our unique imprints passed on by our families, ancestors, communities, institutions, social norms and historical forces, and earth connections. These are experiences that shape our place in time and often create obstructions and dis-ease. Through my on-going journey of undoing, revealing, and healing I have been blessed to find a trinity of noble practices to support others along their journey of understanding and healing the complexities of their pain and suffering.
I look forward to working with and assisting you in finding freedom and flow in your own life.